Today was unexpected, I feel blessed to have friends who don’t sugarcoat issues and show me how it is. 
After a much needed phone call from a friend I haven’t seen for about a year, It basically woke me up, and helped me confirm more in to what I really want to do in my life. For a while, I thought writing lyrics and playing guitar would be what I want to do, but after a while, it wasn’t what I wanted to do. 
I am determined and I am going to work hard towards my goal. My main purpose is photography, to inspire people through my creativity. So from now on, i’m going to focus of photography and what I can do to move forward with it.
Soon, I will be taking promotional photos for a band that a good friend of mine is in and so I’m taking baby steps but I’m getting there. We have the same desires in life, except he wants to do music and i want to do photography, but our main goal is to reach out to people. 

And do you know what?

I’m excited about life for the first time in a long while. 

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Sometimes opportunities come and then as soon as you take it, it just falls out of reach. It becomes frustrating, and for me, I felt like giving up and just fall back in to my shell.

When things like this happen, it can either go two ways, you give up or wait.

Waiting led me to Angels and airwaves gig, through all the tears, and all the realisations from the gig, it helped me to understand that there will always be so much more, that waiting and discovering can be worth it all. I shouldn't surrender, I shouldn't give up on life.

I may be weary at the moment, but I know eventually, it's somehow going to get easier.

New opportunities have happened as soon as others have fallen out of reach.

Please keep me strong.

Learning to deal

and it just one more step to to going back to where i first started.

I 'm sorry to be so depressive lately in my posts, life is frustrating at the moment and as far as I can see, it's not going to get any better,

but what i have learnt, is

We go through to worse, to get to the better part of life.

Tomorrow, I will try my best even though I have this unconfidence, and right now, I don't want to do anything except to travel somewhere, take the stress away and just escape.

I just want to lie in my bed, and never come out of the covers.

Sometimes when good things happen to me, it's hard to process it, but for me, it's time to keep going , time to keep getting better. Laziness will only prevent me and my current issues from going anywhere in my life, but it will only motivate me to do something worth while. I wanna prove myself that i'm worth all the doubt. I want to be happy but not in a materialistic way. I want to show that my inspiration and creativity can help people.

Despite having all these interviews, I may not even get the job(s) but I can only hope.

I'm just tired of life...

"You see a mouse trap – I see free cheese, and a fucking challenge"

Words of a underated lyrical genius.

These words are currently my life, and how it’s heading. When everyone is doubting me, when i’m doubting myself, I grab these opportunities that come my way. You know why? Fuck it, take the risks, see what the outcome is , and even if it’s not what you expect?, stand up and do something more. Something will always come along.

Get up on your feet, and walk.

and even if you can’t do this, write your words on a piece of paper, set your past on fire, and feel free.